9 HURTFUL THINGS IN YOUR LIFE:
1. Bringing back the feelings you’ve learned to forget.
2. Reminiscing the good times.
3. Trying to hide what you really feel.
4. Loving someone who loves another.
5. Having a commitment with someone that you know wouldn’t last.
6. Shielding your heart to love somebody.
7. Loving the person too much.
8. Right love at the wrong moment.
9. Taking the risk to fall in love again.
Double bold for #9 please. The ones in bold are really what im facing or shall i say,have an impact on me. Come to think of it again,it's all true isn't it. And it's also something all of us went through. It's also true what they say,don't be too nice cause people don't tend to treat you nicely like you did. Don't put hopes when you're unsure if things will turn out as the way you want it to be. But,what if the person is the one giving you hopes? And at the same time wishing you had not? Tough,isn't it?
I went through so much. I've been hurt,CONSTANTLY. I gave my best. I did what i have to. I treat everyone nicely. But all i got was shits. I'd love to give it all up,i mean i can if i want to. But thing is,am i willing to do so? Which,i don't really think so. I knew this is happening,sometime, somewhere,i just knew it. I might have like you alot,but i have never ever fall in love with you. There's a difference if you realised. And so,now that it's happening,i hope i'm not shedding a tear cause all i can say is,i'm quite prepared for this already. I'm not going to bother as much as i did,before. But,you're still someone i look up to as a person. And i shall take the best from here.
Honestly,i don't need someone to love,you see. I just need someone who is willing to be there for me,listen to everything that i have got to say,ask me how my day was,willing to spare me a listening ear when i have stacks of problems,make me smile and laugh even for the slightest thing and most important thing of all,make me feel that each and everyday is worth being alive. I might have learnt my lesson,even when i did nothing wrong. But at the same time,i wish i shall not repeat them again cause i just think i'm being too nice. Whatever it is,i'll hope i'm over it,see it in a better and positive prospectives and yes,you're still of a good friend to be around with.
Long post after so long. This week is my last week of school. Holidays starts next week but i don't think it's one cause i havta come back to school almost every single day for the Pahang Trip preparations and trainings. Sleeping in school on saturday night,wishing i could be somewhere outside hanging out with the lovelies. But OAC-ians are the people i look forward to,more. Then trip comes,we'll definitely gonna have a great time. Bonding is something i look forward to upon being there. 11days to go,and it shall all happen. And to the rest of you,happy holidays and have a great one while you can! :D
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