i did,but he dosent,dont you agree?

if he did,he wouldnt neglect me like his doing now .

&& he wouldnt delete that pic dat i gave him,previously . im terribly pissed .

i have no idea wat to post for todae . && all i have now is my neww picture(s) . oh not nicee ehh . just snapping for funn (:

having our dinner at McDonalds (:

&& i've changed the picture above . i thought of putting upp my pictures & PrettyBoy's but drop the idea again as it is not that nicee! but then,i came upp with this,so yes! im SATISFIED! (: so do the caption after i've done with my entries . scroll down (:

PrettyBoy have olready called me to say sorrie & yerpp im now waiting for his call,again! im glad u noe dats ur mistake! (:

PrettyBoy looks totally CUTE todae,really (:

PS: i donnoe what im supposed to bring to school tomorrow

i have my veryy LAST paper todae that is my listening comprehension . && yes,like finally everything's over right now and i feel kinda relief . pheww . oh im getting bored and bored each dae . i reached home early n yupp no one's at home . soo,was all alone and i need some company so i called PrettyBoy and he was so freaking busy and will call me backk later . i thought things could be muchh better than i expected but hence,its still the same . he's ready to go out olready wen he called me backk . i was like,okeyy yes go ahead,i can talk alone to myself =)

i really hope that he could actually say sumthing better that could calm me down cause u noe y? wen he send me backk home,he didnt ask me a SINGLE question . NOT even one . && hell yes,i was so damn freaking pissed by him . cause after waited for PrettyBoy for sumtym,i thought things would turn out good,unlike last night . but,its still remains the farking same . oh i soo love it =) soo,while walking back home,i tried to talk to him but he dosent seems interested so yes,i give upp! i kept quiet all along and yerpp,i walked behind him,slowly . until i was left alone at the backk,he then stopped and waited for me . hoho! i stared at him but,useless,he dosent even look at me . dosent he feel appreciated that i actually waited for him although im deadly tired and hungry?

soo,while waiting for PrettyBoy,i hang around with the rugby guys and yerpp,they are all funny . i wish i could laugh and smile evey single day . soo,one by one went home,left only me and some of them but i decided to sit all alone by myself . soo,i read Mas's malay novel to kill the boredness . && without me realising it,i actually fall asleep down at the table in the canteen,while waiting for PrettyBoy . cause i didnt have enough sleep last night . i still feel the tiredness in me for crying whole loud by myself last night . soo many things around me that makes me feel simply suck . i cant help it . backk again,PrettyBoy dosent even feel pity for me,waiting for him for soo longg till i fell asleep there . talk to me,at least . he did it,again .

i thought with soo many things around me that make me felt this way,i could actually tell PrettyBoy what exactly i feel and i thought he could spare me his listening ear to hear what is actually in my mind but neverless,he didnt . he actually make this situation more worst,he didnt even wanna talk to me from yesterdae . he called me but nutting came out from his mouth like todae . i was deeply dissapointed . && now,he called me to tell me that he's going out olreadyy . coz i think,if i didnt call him upp earlier,he wouldnt call me now . && yes,he dosent wanna say anything . and wen i asked him y didnt he talk to me just now,the answer is freaking simple,simply becoz he dosent wanna talk to anyone . fine!

andand he said; "i'll call u wen i cum backk home"

and i told him; "whatever for u wanna call me wen u didnt even wanna talk to me?"

PrettyBoy replied; "i will still call u ok . remember to eat and im gonna get going . love you ok bye!"

&& he put down the phone before i could say anything to him . i really feel like slapping his bloody face . how i wish im strong enuff to face all this again and again everytime . he told me he wouldnt do that again and its been repeated without saying . dosent he pity me? crying just for his stupiddness? dammit . && i dowanna talk muchh . i simply dowanna see his face tml! i swear . i couldnt bear with it,been crying for soo damn longg but he didnt even say a word to me,like now . i thought he's always dere for me? just listen to wat i feel really hard to u is it? . && im gonna be backk home tommorrow,ALONE . he wouldnt care about ,me,trust me =)

just continue about ur own self,PrettyBoy . never think about me,dont u ever do that . && just clear upp the mess before u start talking backk to me . im not gonna pick upp that bloody phone if u were to call me,trust me . y must i always listen and understand you wen u didnt even care about me?

LOVE SHIT .

Happie 1st MONTH Anniversaryy FEE (:

Spiderman 3 todae? hehe =)

oh! i cant wait to meet my Peter Parker upp! PrettyBoy u go larhh with your Mary Jane yang hidong senget! tk lawaa ehh! hoho! Extreme Makeover konon . hidong senget tetap senget! tk mcm hidong akuu,Mancong! hehe =) Peter Parker lagi handsomee uhh! jealous ritee,PrettyBoy? (:

oh yes,im gonna snapped moree picutes and share them,soon . alah,nak pakai baju aper ehh? FEE tk bwk dat longg-sleeve for me! haiyahh . tkper lorr,jap lagi aku bongkar almari aku yg cute tuu . lols .

OK DAAA! (:

Just chilling arnd;

The hunks of the dae,these are not all :)


These are the mostt important people in my life,really

From this to ....


to this ... lols (:

Lets compare,who have the nicest nose? me or her?

My saturdae was all good . PrettyBoy,Juey,David & Hafiz came down to spare a helping hand . soo,yerpp,those hunks were all great . && i donnoe wat's more to describe that particular dae . && from wat i remember,i wanted to follow those hunks and my cousin for the first trip to Woodlands as i wanted to talk to PrettyBoy but hence,my mum asked me to fry those Pisang soo,no chances . those hunks are in my living room waiting for my cousin's arrival but im the only one down at the kitchen cooking . bad luckk . i couldnt even speak to him,not even a word . smiling and starring are our body talks to each other . i miss him .

Spiderman 3 in a weeks' time okeyy,PrettyBoy? (:

My veryy first pic snapped with PrettyBoy . dosent look nicee,i noe . mate Fahmy sepet! haha

get dis pic from Ida,so i donnoe y its kindaa small . US (:

PrettyBoy & Juey,on our wae home . ok serabai la muke PrettyBoy,kecik je mate awk lols!

it happens on 27th of April,on fridae night,midnight .

my mum & dad didnt talk to eachh other for nearly a month just bcoz of one small lil thing . soo,basically i've been the center person for them . soo,that night,i thought everything was fine . but it turns out to be one of my worst nightmare that could actually lead to a small lil taruma in my life . believe it or not,up to u . but i noe dat for myself,its TRUE . && PrettyBoy noes about it . Listen;

i was having a nice nice slip wen my slip was actually distrupted by a loud voice . a loud voice which have been shouted again and again . soo,i look at the tym on my HP and it was nearly 3 AM . i was like,who the farking hell keep on shouting at this moment . at night summore . soo,i saw my bedroom door open wide and i heard my father says sumthing to my sis . my dad asked my sis to take a look at my mum . i donnoe y larhh kan . soo,it all started wen i heard my dad shouting at my sis & mum . i was scared den . yes,i admit,i get scared wen my father shouts . after den,i saw my mum walk out of her bedroom to the living hall . she walk like as if she's really sickk . soo sickk .

i donnoe wat they talk outside but of all i noe,my dad asked my sis to call sumone to tell about my mum's condition dat tym . but den,my mum sae no need coz its olready 3 AM and ppl are noe sleeping and she dowanna disturb others . soo,they keep on fighting to call and not to call dat sumone . so,my sis dowanna do as wat my dad asked her to,den my father shouted on top of his voice dat cud actually wake my younger sis upp . i was frightened,really,i swear! i remember myself crying loudly bcoz of my frightness . i wish PrettyBoy was dere to comfort me coz i actually says"you,me takot! me takot,you tlg me . me takot sgt!"

and really make me double the frightened is wen my dad told my sis;

if u dont do as i say,im gonna kick u hard .

soo,basically,the commossion dosent stopp untill my dad ask my sis to accompany my mum in her bedroom and den my mum saes no need . den my dad shouted to my sis,go and accompany ur mum! i dont care! i dont want u to sleep tonite! den my mum says,dont bcoz of me,u vent ur anger on ur daughter . my dad replied,im angry at her sumtime ago olready . den blablabla . my mum came into our room . soo,she thought of sleeping in our room,but then my father came into our room and told my mum nicely to get backk into her room and slip dere . my mum told my dad nicely dat she dosent want to burden him anymore and she wanna slipp here with us .

again,my dad told her to get backk to her bedroom and yerpp,she went backk atLAST! && my sis told me the veryy whole storyy wen my dad close the door backk . anyway,he told my sis dat he dosent want to talk to her ANYMORE . soo,they wake upp with the goldfishh eyes,swollen eyes . kindaa bad soo then,wen i wake upp i actually get frightend by my father face . i was scared though . soo,after we all came backk from SpeakEasyy,i heard my parents started talking to eachh toher backk,i was GLAD baybe!

and now,my dad & my sis are all okeyy olready . && now,im the one getting irritated by him . he asked my to help him download stuff n if i do anything wrong,i will get the shouting . soo,i was frust but i still help him though . no choice! soo,yesterdae,while me myself was lying down on my bed,my father came into my room and asked me y didnt i put a neww towel in hie bathroom so i told him i forgot . he laugh and smiled at me . but out of a sudden,he shouted loudly . although he shouted like as if he was joking but dat really gave me a damn farking deep shock and i was scared .

i donnoe the exact reason y im scared but i was like,wen he shout,im scraed . && den,the scene of dat fridae nite came into my mind dat im really frightened . i donnoe y,but dat happens like suddenly . like a trauma . u noe,TRAUMA? soo,get to noe,dat nite,my mum was having a TERRIBLE GASTRIC && my sis was actually told to kol my uncle n told him about my mum's condition . && to my surprise,my uncle heard my parents fight . im having a bad nightmare,till now,really i swear!

TRAUMA?