How time flies,i'm gonna turn 16 in 12 days time. It's not about celebrating my birthday 'm talking about,i'm talking about me,on how fast i grow up. How fast i've turned into a teenager,or maybe,a young adult. 4years in Hilly,is really nice although the school is super stingy in some ways towards the students. Without it,i wouldn't have met those gorgeous and lovely friends. It was the last day of school today,and i brought the camera to school. Nothing much,just slacking and have fun with the rest while we can. It paints a thousand words((:
Ifah,Faiz,Mas,Samad,Yani,Yunis and Dilla =D
Those silly moments,i'm gonna miss it.
Nothing much,just in time for Hoodies Business.
Ah Moi,it's been 5 years of friendship!
Anak Zubir Abdullah.
Boobs talk; just me and her.
And,whoever says im pretty?
Afiq Jackass - has always been.
Scorching HOT sun.
Just the word, Security <---- post,hahaha .
Major papers on next whole week. So does Hari Raya! =D My uncle from Malaysia just dropped by my house and pass our BLUE Baju Kurung kain Songket that he bought for us at JB. i was begging my mum about me wanting to have kain Songket after i've seen how gorgeous it is at Geylang. But,it's super expensive here,so we bought them at JB instead. As said,it turns out to be more than expected. Fabulous and drop dead gorgeous. That really adds on to the excitement for the first day of Raya. Gathering with the whole big family,that's what i've been looking for. Riyan! Aunty got the same color of baju as you,you likeeeee? hahaha =)
I really need to emphasise on this; Although i'm having my time out with the gorgeous boyfriend for the time being to FIX everything i've destroyed,that dosen't mean you stand a chance to date me out OR even,to get back in contact with me or worst still,to flirt with me(?). So what if girls think you're worth to be with. No one can replace Tim,NEVER. And boy,never dreamt about me being with you or stuffs like that and sure you're fucking irritating,i swear. Although i'm not gonna be as closed as i used to with Tim on this short period of time,i'm still his girlfriend,and him,he is STILL my boyfriend. Get that,no really really. And i've never,never ever ever gonna cheat on him,NEVER. Cause dude,he won't do the same thing to me too. I've destroyed one thing between us,but i'm not THAT mean to cheat him. And,i'm mending and fixing everything now. Back to make things close to perfect. Think about it.
I LOVE TIM,and NOT anyone else,get that in mind dammit.
Labels: mending my ways for everything
Read it,and you'll learn something from it,trust me:
How do we go without trust in love? There's no way it can happen. Not even little trust is counted. Big disappointment like breaking up promises,that's the biggest mistake she has done as she has NEVER broke her promises before,to anyone. But why when with him? TWICE. Her nature of always being pampered,let's not make it the reason/excuses all of the time as everyone believes,she can stop getting used to it. Changing herself,she believe she can although she may be slow sometimes. Getting him out of her mind,even for a second,it's impossible. Loving him till whenever,it has always been. But now,let's reduce everything for a short period of time. Simply everything. Fret not,you're not gonna lose him. It's just on how you get used to be in his life,his situation. Uhuh,no more missing meor stuff for the time being. It's just a short date =D
It's not gonna be that long. But building up TRUST,is amazingly tough. But,one can start doing it now,take her own time,slowly,although it's gonna take up around 2/3 months long. Trust,never talk about love when there's no trust at all. Sacrifices,she's gonna do all this as she believe in her instinct very well =) Get on the dating mode,get used to the situation,learn to understand,open your heart and accept it sincerely. And then,prove to everyone,even to those motherfucking dumbass whom you wanted to kick their ass,that you can achieve what you want and that you'll put in your best effort. Because,i always believe in myself.
She never regretted saying yes when he wants her to be his girl on Valentine's Day. Even to him,he never regretted asking for it. It was one of the best day ever,together. But it's just about the time,rushing into relationship isn't the best choice although you know you're fated to be with each other. Look on the bright side,she thanked god for letting whatever happens that particular night,6 days ago. It if wasn't for it,those horrible things will keep on going without realising or even without any changes. Now that situation is not like before for a short period of time,just endure. If you really love that someone,you'll do anything and everything to make things perfect <---- believe it or not,i'm doing it. Yes,i am.
Thousands of apologises won't turn back the clock/time. It's just about ME,about me opening my heart to be a better person and learn to treasure and appreciate precious people around me,in a much more better way. It's another way on getting you to learn to be a stronger and much more mature in thinking. Of course,you can't run away from reality,try to bear with it,and you'll get used to it. One expensive lesson learnt now. No regrets,no nothing. The love may decrease a little bit on one's side,but he still loves you,very much. You CAN earn it back Dilla,here's the GOLDEN CHANCE for you to make things happened,all by yourself. He's asking you to prove it to him now,right now. Use it,prove it,treasure it. That's what i learn. And yes,I'm talking about my life right now.
Deep in our heart,we knew how much we meant to be with each other,how much love we had for the past 7/8 months,how much we can't live without each other although sometimes we tend to get away from it for a short moment,how much trust we've build and everything which concerns. And for now,no more pressure,no more sadness,no more crying and no more stress. Everything's gonna be fine. It's all about the N level now. After then,that's it kay? =) And so,for this short period of time,let's keep our feelings to OURSELF no matter how much we miss each other,no matter what. It's gonna do the relationship good,trust me. Cause i trust you,too. And we're building it,bit by bit. Back to square ONE.
A moment of happiness with tears beside it,for the SECOND time handsome,you did it! <333
(hahahaha,rhyme lah pulak kan)
Labels: A wonderful birthday still
After 2days,i'm back crying.
I bet,he still am not gonna forgive me no matter what.
But,i'm all ready to change,for real baby,for real this time round.
I'm hungry,stomach's grumbling. Few more minutes to breaking fast and i swear i'm not eating,anything. Not even drinking a cup of tea,NOPE.
After a few minutes ...........
But,my instict keeps on telling me,just endure with this kind of situation for another short while cause Hatim still loves me as much as he usually do. Still missing me terribly like he always did and i'm still his Bestest Girlfriend in this whole wide world =) i know,my instict are great although i may broke down sometimes. Other than that,i believe Fate is with us because,with this situation too,it's helping us to make our relationship much much much more meaningful and stronger. It also taught me to be a stronger,patience and understanding person =) I won't be messaging you until you do. Rest assured,you'll have your time alone and i won't disturb you kay? you can get back to me,anytime. I'm always waiting,ALWAYS((:
On the other hand,this girl right,she can't stop telling me to have my dinner when i told her i don't feel like eating anything although it's breaking fast time! And before she comes down all the way from Bedok to Bukit Batok and rembat me,i think i should start eating right now! hahaha. Specially for you too babe;
I LOVE YOU TOOOOOO KAISH BABY! =DDDDDDDDDD
cause you make me feel way better than the way i are.
Labels: so does to MIMZ honey
My family,Hatim,Nunu,Sally,Yani,Yunis and Riyan my nephew. I can't imagine how my life would be like without ANY of them. I then realised,i take things for granted. Even in my relationship,sometimes,i take Tim for granted although he understand my nature is like that. The trivial matter we argued some nights without putting an end although i know dragging it longer isn't gonna do any good. The stupid/silly remarks i gave to Yani and Yunis everytime in class. Other mistakes/misunderstandings i had with my family. Having someone to talk to when i'm down and really need someone to really understand me and my situation - Nunu <--- She's the perfect person i can talk to. For some bitchy times i had with Sally. Being cute and tolerate Riyan's nonsense and cuteness.
After being in the situation which i'm literally not used to,i then started realising ALOT of things. Dare to think of the consequences and whatever mistakes i did all this while. Give myself a chance to open up my heart and change for the better. Cause sometimes,i didn't dare to think what might happen if arguments between me and Tim were to continue on without stop? What if his level of patience are running low? What if he can't tolerate my nonsense anymore? I haven't been thinking of that as i thought,Tim had promised me that he won't leave me for anything no matter what and that things like that won't happen. You know,these 3 days have given me a chance to really think like a grown-up person. Really.
Write down the problems and the solutions on pieces of paper - that's one of the way i did to get things back on track. Late night call,your messages,your voice - i really really miss them =( i've been reapproaching myself for those terrible things which took place cause i know,they are certainly my fault. Every of them. I don't wanna apologise yet,cause i know,everyone else can do the same thing. But for now,all i gotta do is to convince you that i'm changing and prove to you that i'm not lying. I may have broken the promised once,but i'm not gonna disappoint/hurt you for the second time. I can't afford to hurt you again when you've done ALOT for us,but what about me? I did nothing. And give me another chance to do my part for this,just for once. That's all i'm asking for baby.
And Nunu,thanks alot for being there. You're really nice,really really nice. After a long day,she made me smile,like finally hor! She understand my situation well and understands me. After the long talk with her hours ago,i've started to feel way better,waaaay better than i am compared to the last 2 days. I've stopped crying,start to relax and take things easy. Told me alot of stuffs and shared with me about her relationship with Vam. How they manage things well. How to give oneself space and time alone for sometime. Ahhh,she's totally the best although i've only known her for almost 8months now. I love you lor~ and yes,i miss you too. We'll bitch about some stuff soooooooooooon =]
And now,all i gotta to is to be patience and wait. And Dilla,tell me something about tomorrow's plan for Tim =] And baby,i still love you so much cause you meant the world to me. And,you're the BEST BOYFRIEND in this BIGBIGBIG world. No one can ever replace you,never. That's a promise.
Labels: all i need is just you
Seperation will never be the option no matter how terrible the situation is. Cause all i need is you and not anyone else,baby. Not anyone else to make my life beautiful. Because; I'm in love with you,ONLY. I really really miss you,TERRIBLY =(
Labels: Start afresh
Almost a big girl now and i've already got a dream! =D
excited cause i've started thinking about the future .
Labels: 23 i suppose
This is exactly the place where the person whom will be labelled as my true love,will bring me to in years to come. And yes,i'm still waiting for the day to come though((: and although i'm not fasting today,i've not eaten a single thing. Ahhhh,i'm hungry man =( And i miss the gorgeous boyfriend too =(
Anyhooooooes,7 months and still going strong!
i love you baby<333
Labels: 24 days
Just for a short moment to share some pictures taken at Yunis crib few minutes ago. Up for some requests from some friends who's dying to take a look at my new hair. Nothing much,just that it has become more and more straight. Haha. So yeah,it's all a random shot((:
the sad thing was,i got no more bangs =(
please eh,i don't need the face hor Muhammad Akhmal Abdul Skeikh Nurayunis =DD
That's it for now,i'm beginning to miss my boyfriend. B,quit skating and faster meet me lor! =(
"I know the answer,but i just dowanna tell you" Some genius kid wrote this during examination as the person is freaking lazy to get his papers done. Instaed,he went off to sleep while everyone else is squeezing their brain juice,answering to the questions. I wish i could do this too,although i totally screw my Prelims but hey,that doesn't mean i ddin't do well for my other N level Phase 1 which has just ended. I did my very best and i am confident enough to score well,way better than i usually does. (i've never passed my social studies,if you wanna know). Schools are fine,although we're really occupied by major examinations. And yes,just two step closer to graduating! =D
Oh no thanks,i'm seriously not gonna take my O's,i swear. Some people been bugging me to take them but no,i really don't want to. Even my genius sister didnt do well,what about me then? huikhuik ^_^ It's gonna be fucking hard and tough for me,and yeah,i'm like gonna take the other route to getting Diploma. A long route indeed. Ahh,enough talking about educations,it's literally driving me nuts. Hello back gorgeous readers. I'm not missing or whatsoever,just that my internet connections need to get some changes and yeah,for the time being there's no connections at home. Not even the connections of me and my father. Ah,father. The 20th day today,right? (Timmy,only you knows). Anyhooes,I'm at my cousin's house whose kind enough to let me use his comp for a short while although he's not at his house now. And i just came back from school,had my History Prelim. It was manageable,and yesterday's paper really SUCK BIG TIME .
It was Maths Paper 1 and Physics. Whatever,i ddin't study much,just did some revisions. And i bet,Miss Ang's gonna fuck me upside down as i didnt complete the paper and scribble nonsense here and there (but i attempt those questions,at least). Okay,that's it. Seriously enough about schools/exams/papers/prelims. Oh yeah,before i forgot,I'VE ACTUALLY GOT MY HAIR STRAIGHT! =DD How sexciting,i know. It's freaking straight,freaking soft,freaking long,freaking nice,freaking gorgeous,freaking whatever that you can fit it in. I've not snapped any of my pictures yet,so next time perhaps. And yeah,met the boyfriend after a week,and i miss sitting down laughing like one small kid with him <----- well,that's what i managed to do yesterday! =D
On another note,WE have this plan on going to Zoological Garden! =DDD I was telling him how much i wanted to go there,and to see my lovely Polar Bear! Haha. As a treat of me doing extremely well for my Social Studies Paper for the very first time from the lovely one. Thanks ah B,you're the best boyfriend and you're THE ONLY ONE who understands me extremely well! Besides that,I've planned to bring him somewhere really nice. Just for the BOTH of us. Cause i think,it's been so long since i wanted to spend my time with him alone,and not with anyone else. And i guess,it'll be a great day for the two of us. But it's not gonna be so soon. LONG JOHN SILVER for me first,if not,nothing for you lor! =P B,you know what? No matter how i hate you at certain minutes when we had misunderstandings/arguments/fighting,I love you more than i usually did at the other minute. That shows how strong my love is Timmy. So better be nice to me and treat me to Long John,if nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot,NO ZOO FOR YOU! (although i'm the one who's dying for it) Haha.
Till then,leave me a message anywhere if you need to. Will be back as soon as i can =D
Labels: 29days and i'm turning old .
N level paper starts from tomorrow . followed by Prelim Phase 2 the next week . and again,followed by another set of N level papers on the other week . ahh,genius . easy said,my whole long weeks is occupied by major exams . whatever,i'm trying very hard to be a good girl and keep on doing revision without failed <----- that's what i've been doing since weekend,okay! =D anyways,i can count the number of days left for me TO GET MY HAIR BACK STRAIGHT! next week prolly? huikhuikhuikhuk ^_^ after forever,i'm getting freaking excited each day((: and again,i need to save some money for the hair shampoo+conditioner+hair mask . oh,maaan . anyhoooes,HAPPY FASTING!
save money . save money . save money . save money . save money . save money
Labels: 36 more days but no one cares =(
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